The Journey Of A Sexy Single Gal

If I knew then what I know now I wonder how different my life would be. When I was younger, I was in my masculine all the time, and I chased after men actively pursuing them, Trying to get them into bed quickly, so that I could control them. It never worked. They always left. In doing that, I did not give them a chance to actively pursue me. I did not want to be responsible for my emotions and feelings. I was in a short marriage to a man who I had tricked myself into being in love with him. I didn't know what love was, and I did not know until I was going through my divorce what the feeling of being in love was. A couple months after my separation at 21 years old (I am 63 now), I met my first love. After my marriage, I did not trust my emotions, and so for many years I shut down not allowing myself to feel. I never said I love you out loud to my first love, so for many many years, I was in my head until I met my second love. It was then that I discovered the feeling of saying I love you out loud. It felt like air was finallly flowing through my heart. Although the relationship did not work out, I felt like I had finally experienced the true total essence of being in love.

These days and for quite a long time now, I have been giving my love life and my sex life to God and asking for divine order in my love life and sex life. Feeling heart connected while making love is a fabulous feeling, so I prefer to wait until I feel that heart connection. If a man comes to me and shows me that he wants to be with me, be around me and spend time with me, it feels incredible. I have experienced alot of rejection in my past, so the experience of someone actually wanting to spend time with me feels amazing. When I was younger, I chased men, because of all the rejection I experienced as a child. My biological father disappeared when I was 2, and I also didn't feel the nurturing and love from my mom. Her way of loving me was to control me. The kids also made fun of me in school.. I didn't want to be abandoned, and so I did the pursuing. Now I realize I was in my masculine. I have to catch myself at times, because I do not want to do the pursuing ever again. I want to experience that incredible feeling of feeliing wanted. Recently, I have been experiencing  that feeling of being wanted and desired by a man I feel a soul filled friendship connection with, and I like it. I am just letting us BE and evolve into what is meant to be. I am declaring divine in general for my love, sex and romantic life. I do not believe in controlling any income with a man.  I am loving the experience of seeing some  major shifts within myself.  I am in a private facebook book club where we all read and working through the book "Calling In The One".  I have also had six sessions with Joanna Kennedy, an awesome tantra, love, sex & relationship coach. As I am writing this, I am thinking WOW. I didn't realize how much I shifted until just this second. I do believe I have become more emotionally available.

 Thank you God.

Does Size Matter? The Power Of The Penis - Part 2

What is all the hullabaloo about men's penis sizes anyway? Does size really matter? In my opinion, it is the chemistry between two people and how this man makes love to me that matters more then anything else. It is also how he makes me feel. If HE boasts about his size and what he can do for me, believe me, it is a sure fire way to turn me off. I know that a man who boasts about the size of his penis and how good he is in bed, if I allowed him to, would have sex with me with his ego and not his heart.  When we connect with our hearts, we are making love. I prefer men who are small to medium anyway. I am uncomfortable with a bigger size man.Then again, there are women who love bigger sized men. I am not one of them.

Being that I am a nudist, I see men of all sizes in the community I live in. Seeing a penis is really no big deal to me; however, if I meet a single man out by the pool who is a bigger size,, I run the other way. I sometimes meet men outside of the nudist environment who aren't nudists. After a first date, I usually invite them to the pool for the day. This is to see if they will be able to handle being nude. I think sometimes that they think that I want to see how they will measure up. That could not be further then the truth.

 I usually stake out a couple of lounge chairs before  they arrive. Knowing how sensitive men are to their sizes, I bring them to the chairs and then excuse myself to the restroom. This is to give the man time to check things out and to undress without me being there. It takes the pressure off. By the time I get back 5 minutes later, they are already nude and lying in the chair. I have only had one man ask if his size was ok. 

So what do you all think?

Pink Reflections Of Sex And Dating in My 60's

Well here I about to be 63 years old in April, and I am still single. I never thought that when I divorced my ex husband at 21 years old that I would still be single, BUT I AM. I remember when I told a family friend who must have been in her 50's or 60's at the time that I was getting a divorce, she screamed NO! She apparently had been married at a young age and had never remarried. I thought at the time how silly she was to be so upset. I had no doubt that would would I get married again. Forty two years later.......

NOW, I feel no need to get married. Whatever for? I don't plan on sharing my fabulous fortune (hahahaha).  I do actually enjoy my own company, and I have noone to tell me what to do. I do, however, miss the connection of intimacy and closeness on a consistent basis. Commitment sounds wonderful as long as we have separate bathrooms, our bedroom and then his and her bedrooms (just in case). When I was younger, I dated men much much older then me (20-30 years older). The reason being was that I knew I didn't want children and men in their 40's, 50's and 60's usually don't want children. I have never felt that maternal instinct. 

Now I am looking to about  6 years younger and MAYBE 6 years older, because I want a man who still can have  erections. I DO NOT want a man who has one foot in the grave; because if I went 20-30 years older now, they would be in their 80's and 90's. SHUDDERING. I hate to think that just because I am about to be 63 that I might never have sex again.

OY VEY!!!!  Scarey thought.

I am not the kind of gal who has sex just for the sake of having sex. I think I mentiond before in another blog post. I make love with my emotionsI  and once my emotions kick in, I get turned on. I have been that way for a huge chunk of my life. I am ALWAYS horny for a heart connection. When I was younger, I was much more sexually active, but now I feel like I have grown and evolved considerable over the last 43 years since my divorce. To be continued.....
 

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My Trips To Hedonism II In Negril Jamaica

Today, I got lucky. I won a free trip to Hedonism 11 in Negril, Jamaica through Tom's Trips. I am very excited. 

Why am I excited? I am excited, because last July (2013) I went to Hedonism 11 for the very first time.  I knew about the group, the Fluffernutters for a couple of years, because I have friends that go to Hedonism all the time with them. My friends convinced me that I would be comfortable in the surroundings of Hedonism 11 and with the Fluffernutters, because the group is a mix of swingers and non swingers. I was told that the people are a lot of fun and very respectful. I am a nudist, but  I am not a swinger; so I hesitated for a couple of years. Finally I said "What the hell", and I booked it. When I booked it, I paid for the expedited service at the airport, and am I glad I did. I felt like I was treated like royalty. They have shuttle service to and from the airport for free. I chose on that trip to fly in the small 3 passenger commuter plans back and forth. It is about 20-25 minutes instead of I think the 1 1/2 or so bus trip. I paid $125 each way. 

I got to Hedonism, and after checking in was shown my room. I  had purposely booked a room to myself. I got out of my clothes and set off to find the nude pool. My room was in the nude beach view area, so instead of turning left, I turned right and ended up in the prude section. I wasn't wearing much of anything and everyone was staring at me. One of the staff,took my hand and walked me over to the nude pool. I was a little nervous at first and not sure what to expect; however, I immediately met a single guy (let's call him my Cabana Boy) who wasn't part of the Fluffernutters group.  He and I instantly clicked, and I spent the whole 7 days with him. Everyone in the group was very friendly and so much fun.   During the Body Shot Party at the pool, Fifty (he used to be Mr. Jamaica) caught me off guard, picked me up yelliing Virgin, threw me on a mat and proceeded to lick body shots off my toes and my nipples.

My Cabana Boy and I  had a lot of erotic and sexy fun in the pool, etc, but just with eachother.  My friends were blown away by how free and open I was. They had never seen me that way before. Cabana Boy was a swinger, but he too chose to just be with me as well. I was never alone. We went to breakfast, lunch and dinner together and to all the shows. Winston who dresses like a woman in the shows was my favorite. I was able to bring My Cabana Boy to some of the private Fluffernutter parties. I had booked it too late to be able to go on the Pirate Cruise (which I hear is wild and crazy), so I didn't think I could get on it. I didn't want to go without my guy, so we chose to go into town that day to Margaritaville and Rick's Cafe. Later, I found out, that we could have both gotten on the boat. 

After a fun and amazing 7 days, I had to say good bye to my Cabana Boy. He did, however, come to visit me two months later for 11 days (too long). It proves to the fact that whatever happens in Hedo SHOULD STAY in Hedo. He was not my cup of tea in the reality of life.

I am going back to Hedo once again with the Fluffernutters this May 2-9 for Princess Week-also with an upgraded room to myself in the nude beach view. It is a smaller group, but I am sure it will be a fun adventure.  I cannot wait!

So any opinions on when I should go with my free days? I have a year to use them. I have thought about Biff's group.
 

Soul Mate Love And Divine Energy

Divine Energy is God’s energy, and he works through us to bring about changes,improvements and solutions in any aspect of our lives. In this particular blog, I am speaking of asking for divine energy to come infor the specific purpose of improving our love, sex and romantic lives whether we are single, dating, in a committed relationship, married or in a difficult soul mate relationship. Soul Mate Love is very powerful, but sometimes we can't see if he/she is the right and perfect soul mate for us.  God is always with us. We are never alone, and HE is always waiting for us to say YES to bringing in a new and better soul mate for us  or just improving our soul mate connection.

Above all, remember that no soul mate relationship, condition or situation has to stay the same. Remember also that when we bring about divine energy into our soul mate relationship, sometimes we can get the opposite effect of what we think we would like to create. This is because it could be AGAINST THE PERSON'S WILL to improve the 

relationship or get closer, and it could be that God sees things better then we do.. Divine energy through God can sometimes point us in a completely different direction, and it could be a totally different but awesome direction OR HE could help us get closer to eachother then we never dream possible. We never know, but God does.

WAYS TO ASK FOR DIVINE LOVE TO COME INTO YOUR LOVE LIFE OR SOUL MATE RELATIONSHIP.

Light a white candle, stare at the flame (the flame is God), and ask for God to bring Divine Energy into your relationship, and ask for this divine energy to flow between you and your lover/soul mate. If you have a specific problem between you, divine energy will heal the problem. Keep in mind that the outcome may or may not be to your liking. Pray like this for 15 minutes a day, and you will soon have your answer.

DIVINE ENERGY AFFIRMATIONS - PICK ONE OR CREATE YOUR OWN. MAKE SURE YOU ARE REPEATING YOUR AFFIRMATION 1/2 TO 1 HOUR A DAY OVER AND OVER AGAIN OUT LOUD. ALWAYS REPEAT AFFIRMATIONS IN THE PRESENT TENSE.

God's Divine Energy is flowing between ___ and me.

Divine Energy is flowing through me now in pointing me in the direction of perfect soul mate love.

Soul Mates And Twin Souls

This is Part 2 Of My 3 Part Video Series. Click here to  find Part One on soul mate connections on Youtube.

There has been so much talk about Soul Mates and Twin Souls over the years, and so I've decided to video blog my own take and belief on the subject of soul mates and twin souls. Soul Mate connections keep our spirits alive and our hearts happy. Our souls need to be nurtured and loved in order to survive in our physical bodies. Without love our souls wither like a beautiful flower that has not been watered. Since we are our souls in the physical body, we need to be continually nurtured and loved in order to grow and evolve.  I  believe that everyone possesses within them their own reality and truth about life.  Watch my video, and please feel free to comment on what I have to say.

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The Cuttest Little Dog Story

I just had to share the cutest thing that happened to be me today. I went to Under The Sun today. For those of you that don't know it, it is a boutique for people in the nudist community. I go there a lot, and Rene's dog Coco knows me. She is a very mellow dog; so I was a little surprised when I got out of my hot pink car and started walking from my car towards the door that she started barking like crazy. I thought "Oh Coco is happy to see me". When I got inside, she greeted me at the door with a tiny hot pink doggy purse in her mouth. Now how cute is that! The dog knows I like Pink.